Thursday, July 24, 2008

I cannot stand myself for walking so slow! >.<

Monday while finishing work @ NTU, as I walked up the slope to the bus-stop, I feel great pain on my left knee. I ignore it cause once in awhile I've pains everywhere. When I reached WL, the pain got worst, by the time I was back home from church I can't walk already. The pain is really there, I feel my knee bones like wearing out. That night my grandma put ginder on my leg but it doesn't seems to help.


So the next day I went to see "Sinsei". She wanted to do accupunture for me, I said "no"! Then she said just two needles will do. So unwillingly, she poke that needle into my knee cap bone! Wah piang! Super pain lor, she still told me it's just like ant bite. Have you ever be bitten by ant??? Not enough, she still turn the needle and ask if i feel the numbness and the pain, wah piang! She turn the needle can you imagine? I didn't even dare to look!!! Shit lor, super painful, that's not the worst. After the needle poking, she rub here and there oull here and there and rub on my nerves loh, that's super painful la. >.<`

Afterwards she bandage it and give me a tube of medicine, yucks! Then she said " it's feng shi" What? I'm only 22 lei got "feng shi", wah piang I think i'm really a old women in a young lady's body. Then she said i can't do sports or one mth, oh man no jog and swim for me. >.<""" Haiz now i just pray i can recover asap.

I went out for dinner today, usualy i walk super fast, around 5 min to reach the bus-stop, today i took like 15min. It's like so abit not mobile lahz, then everyone keep looking at my bandage. Then my frens walk so fast lah, I've difficulty catching up but they're still considerate enough la. But i just hate the feeling of slow as i've never been slow. At least now I know the feelings of old people and disable people.

Oh Lord, please heal me.

12:49 AM

-Jing Juan-

Friday, July 18, 2008

I'm tired of being treated like someone who's insignificant. Do I really look like those who can be pushed around and be teased about? Sometimes I don't show that I'm unhappy about it doesn't mean I don't mind or accept it. It's just that I take it as it is loh, what else can I do? But I can't take it anymore, stop saying me le!! Can just talk to me properly, treat me like your friend not pet!

12:36 AM

-Jing Juan-

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Rw left for Australia yesterday, well I didn't go send him off, I hate departing scene especially if he's someone... I'll try to avoid if I can don't send people off to study, I'll cry de. I just hate to see close friends around me off to study, well the next one will be Penny. If it's me, the more people who come and send me off, the more upset i'll be. I just hate to leave the place where I'm already so use to everything here, that's why i never choose to study oversea. Chemistry is never my 1st choice if i have the chance i'll go Australia to study Nutrition. I even thought of completing my degree here and when i'm older and more independent enough then go Australia to get another degree in Nutrition but that's like waste of $ and time. Well...

Anyway, Kj gave all of us his blog, I never know RW got blog. He's the type of person that won't know how to express himself, he'll just keep things to himself, that's from what I know about him. He's the kind of person who lacks nothing, he doesn't have to worry about anything i guess. But when i read his blog, omg i was like...is that really him? His every single post is so "emo" all about loner, loneliness.... oh gosh.... reading his blog and listening to the music he post can make one sad, esp if you are the emotional type like me. [P.s dono if he knows my blog but if he does, just wana let you know, you r not alone kz got alot of friends
who care for you, really! =0) ]

Once I guess i was like him, feeling so "kong xu" deep inside my heart. I don't know why i felt that way too, but somehow i'm super lonely. I hate fridays and esp at night. The loneliness in me can't be described, you just feel empty inside. You think alot about all the stuffs that perhaps may only be something trivial. I just hate being alone, i hate to go out alone, i hate to eat alone...But right now, I'm no longer like that. No more emptiness in me, life is full of hope ever since I know God. He fills my emptiness, He knows when i'm sad and there He is standing there to embrace me. That's the reason why i feel super blessed because He's with me. Why do I like sunflower, not solely because it's beautiful, it also give one a sense of hope and life.

First fulfilled dream - stand in the midle of a sunflower farm

12:09 AM

-Jing Juan-

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Ru wei's farewell

Met up with yf in the afternoon for window shopping, first time of my 3 months holiday I never spend any money on shopping haha. This means I'm really broke kz. At night we met up with my sec school friends to bid a farwell for Ruwei since he's going australia to study for 2 years. Well, it's not really long laz, soon it'll be over and I haven't graduate at all! ArGh...why my degree takes so long to complete.

Had our dinner at Taka Breeks and yf and I split the meal cost for rw and kj since we still owe kj birthday treat. Eh that kj:how can you don't bring money out and still finishes almost all my popcorn! Afterwhich we watch "Red cliff" Yes it's "Red Cliff" can't imagine i watch such shows right? Yea i never watch such shows before, I hate "guys" show, all the wars, soldiers, fighting and etc etc. Hahaz but well since rw requested so ok lor.

The show is of course about fighting in "Red Cliff" back in the Hans i think. I think it's because of the Dynasty Warriors game that i've played before that's why i know the characters name like Cao cao, Liu bei, Zhu geliang blah blah. I didn't know that Cao cao was the bad guy, well all along i didn't know who's the bad guy anyway, i only know their existence in books. I must say this show is really exciting, the strategy and plot they use for fighting is really amazing. Really nice but the ending too abrupt, I was hoping for the final fight using the naval bases but it ended with " to be continued" -.-'' there'll still be a 2nd part which is still filming right now, I can't wait for it to be on theaters. Must watch, recommended!

1:16 PM

-Jing Juan-

Saturday, July 05, 2008

One more month to school starts, can time crawl instead? Heez, I haven't enjoy enough! Updates for what I've been doing recently.

Thursday

I just bought an oven and I'm so eager to bake cookies so on thurs I tried to bake and well....sad to say I almost burn my whole oven. -.-" Haiz ok haha, I know i'm not good in baking. But i did follow instructions ok. It stated grease your baking sheet and place on tray in oven and preheat. So i did what i was told and guess what, my baking sheet was "chao tar" till like as though you're buring paper and my whole oven was filled with smoke. No wonder i smell "char tar" smell in my kitchen la. -.-" However, in the end the cookies still turn our quite edible la. Haha~

Friday

Was out with Ah wang yesterday to Haji Lane. To my surprise the shop Pluck had closed, I wanted to try their ice-cream there lor but haiz abit disappointed. I really like the whole concept of the shop full of acrylic design. However, I realised there are more shops as compared to 1 year ago when I was there. Well, this place is meant for window shopping, not advisable to buy cause the stuffs there are abit ex but they're nice. After shopping at Haji Lane we went to Bugis street of course. Sat down at the bugis cafe and grab some bite before continuing our 2nd part of shopping. And ended up I spend so much $ there and ah wang only bought a pair of shoes. Dotss =S, there she is keep complaining she's very poor but still want to shop, hmmz.











Saturday

Today unlike my usual Saturday, I ended up sleeping the whole day at home due to lack of sleep, there's no CG today, they have "jiao you" in botanical garden and because today is Seok Ping's 21st so I apply for "leave" haha. But...haiz.....why i can't get away from Woodlands! My only sat with no cg I still have to go Woodland cause her party was held in Woodland, ArGhzZz haha. Woodland has become my 2nd home I guess - Mon, Sat and Sun. Upon arriving, Seok ping's mum greeted us with a warmth welcome and asked " you all never bring your bf here ah?" So there I was like " =S er...don't have bf how to bring" (Stupid Linnet why you never come help me say something better, you just replied with a ya only!!) Haha. Anyway, I really had a super full dinner then cakes and pudding. (Thanks seok ping for inviting, I hope she had a wonderful night)

On the way home in bus, I was sitting outside on the double sitter seats and the lady inside was alighting. As usual, 334 is pack with people especially on Sat night. So obviously when someone leave the seat I have to move in to let others have the chance to sit. And well I don't like to sit inside and just beside me stand a guy and he wants to sit down of course so there hesitating to move in I look up at him and ask if he wants to move in but with his ears occupied with mp3 he couldn't hear and give that "huh" look. At that moment when I look at him, I realise he's quite gd-looking. Before that I was reading my book but I somehow counld continue anymore haha. I seldom can spot any of the type of guys I would like in my neighbourhood and he alighted in the same stop as me too. Actually he does not belong to the" gd-looking" category just average only but somehow he just looks pleasant. There're some type of guys by first look, you're just attracted to. Anyway enough about him.

Here's the pics~

11:31 PM

-Jing Juan-