Sunday, January 27, 2008
I saw him again yesterday! I don't know why everytime i sit NEL I'll just think of him and had this feeling that's i may see him. And guess what I really saw him at Far East Plaza while doing my shopping alone. Oh no, this is my think 3rd time seeing him outside. Why? Rationally he's not the one. But emotional wise, I just feel abit attracted. But..but... I am still rational enough. But the fact that i saw him did brighten up myself. Then i started recalling about last yr's V day, it's memorable la i can't deny that. Okay, let's be more rational, go with your head not your heart. The fact that i'm rational it's because i've saw more of better guys around, haha, kidding.
Anyway, my mood swing is getting worst! I begin to think if i've got some kind of mental problem or what lahz. One min I can be happy and smiling, the other min i may be overwhelm by temper, anger or frustration, or the other min moodiness, depressed! ArgHz, can't explain the reason also. Oh no! What's the root of the problem? There's like alot of rubbish inside my heart that i need to dump them! Start anew, renewal!! Oh Lord, help. I need some help! I'm deeply depressed, moody...
12:53 AM
-Jing Juan-
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Back to school~ Attended a business module today. It's Fundamental of Management, it isn't what i wanted in the 1st place but since i balloted it, well no choice. I wanted to take Business Finance, i heard they'll teach abt stock and shares, wah interesting. Well, at least better than, managing this and managing that, what is organisation or what is management, duhz boringZ. Haz.
So, i'm still thinking if i should drop this module. It's an elective anyway. And moreover if i'm taking it this sem i'll have 7 modules!! 5 modules last sem was already a killer, -.-"" Should i drop? hmmm.....
9:40 PM
-Jing Juan-
Monday, January 07, 2008
Sch's starting tml but I've no classes haha just realised that. Yesterday was SP Alumni Day so i went back to SP. Yea, haiz i miss my poly. Saw Amos Goh!! My fav lecturer cause i think he's very shuai, haha. The perfect guy, he's a christian, gd-looking, educated, gd personality. Haha, he's married anyway.
Saw some other poly friends, etc Cecil, asked her how was her life in NUS, I think she's doing much more better than I am. Zzz haiz...Nus...... i guess i'm the only ntu student who keep saying gd stuffs abt nus bah, cause usually people from ntu will bad-mouth abt nus and vice versa. She seems to enjoy her life there, joined student union somemore.....-.- student union is the most busy cca.
Haiz, get a life in 2008!!! I don't want to look back my life in uni to be only filled with studies and studies and studies! I know i'm a super non-active member in odac la. Haiz can't help their activities and my time clashed. Thinking of joining string ensemble then i dun have to spend extra cash learning my violin. Or maybe sports club since their activities is usually aft classes and i really need some exercise to keep fit. Shu ling asked mi join ice-skate..hmmm i guess it'll usually fall on sat, so hmmm.....and i already know how to skate so...not much excitement lei. I need something exciting, haha. Yea, excitement! Gota recharge!
Friends-seeking when i return to sch on wed. Got to open my eyes wide, be bold and go make friends!! It's so ke lian lo every time only the few of us. Haha. In tutorial, i'm going to talk to people. In uni you simply cant be isolated, you'll die inside, really. Many people in church have advised me on this so i'm going to take my first step to know more friends. Wish me gd luck~
"If men are like buses, how do I catch one" saw this book at Tecman, haha interesting, there's another one...Men are waffles, Women are like spaghetti. Read a few pages of each, now i know why men are like waffles and women like spaghetti. Haha, quite true in some sense. Interesting books but my main aim was to look for a book called "
Still bored, in a culture of entertainment" but it was out of stock duhz. I guess this is more suitable for me now, i need some renewal, recharge, refocus.
Can you imagine, this generation is fully filled with entertainment and nothing ever seems to satisfy us, what exactly are you look for? Is life like treadmill? You walked as fast as you can, you jog or run as fast as you want. After a while, you stopped, your heart is pounding, you're perspiring. Yet You've gone nowhere? Because you're just doing your whatever thing on a treadmill.
12:15 AM
-Jing Juan-
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
First entry in 2008, Happy New Year!!
Bid my farewell to 2007 yesterday in a church prayer meeting. This is my 3rd year spending it in church. I'm not going to mention the events that happened in 2007. In this new brand year, of course I've gota make new resolutions. Did i fulfill my resolutions for 07, well i guess some of them i did.
Give thanks to God, that He's always with me throughout my most happy and difficult times. I suppose every year is a tough year for most but with God's grace I made it through. Well, in this new year, I've more and better things that I wanted to do. Not indulging in worldly stuffs but also be alert and do something for God despite of the busy schedule ahead.
School's starting next week. Have to work real hard this time!
6:24 PM
-Jing Juan-
