Friday, January 26, 2007
Today i decided to blog crap.
There are guys whom when you first see them, there's something that catches your attention, something that makes you attracted to him. Though you never know how he's like, good or bad, it's just something that makes you feel attracted. However, there are also guys who can't attracted you at all no matter what. Even if he's good, well... pleasant but you just don't feel anything about it.
I can't deny the fact that there're some guys around me that attracts me but.... i can only say that for the moment i've no more energy to commit. I don't see the point of building up another relationship to be crashed by another person. I have no more will to put in another pile of effort i once put in. The drive to commit is no longer in me. I can see how the future will be like, perhaps there may be somebody there but i just can't build up the faith once again, the security that was lost and the committment. I don't mind enjoying the companion from them but it's just not being together.
Boohoo~
10:21 PM
-Jing Juan-
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Why are there only 24 hours a day? Time is never enough for me espcially during exams period. My mind is full of all my food stuffs!! I almost wanted to stop coming online and i can just study straight from morning to midnight. Zzz Counting down 3 more weeks to graduation!! And i think i am lost. And why and why our paper is on friday?? All the other Cls courses should have ended the latest on wednesday including IC!! Dotz..somemore is afternoon paper -.- Well at least after that it's gota be the end of my slavery to books for the moment. Hoho~
Was asking my lecturer today regarding some of the uni courses ntu is offering and she mentioned that we look quite lost not knowing where to go...I always thought food science in nus is always the course i wanted, well it still is. However, i have to find alternative right if i cant get in?? The gpa is like 3.8!! And how possibly cant i get 3.8!! Well provided i got all dists this sem and that's not quite possible because there is an eng module. The best grade i got for eng module is a B and i m happy enough. Haiz. Though the difference of my gpa from it is only abit but it does make a difference. If i really cant get in then i am trully lost! -.-
Chemistry and biological chemistry in ntu seem promising but is that really the right path? I would prefer biological sciences. I asked my uncle abt it and got some info though i m not sure if what he said was true haha. It's not a bad idea afterall to have a degree in biochem while having a dip in food, more versatile. And that's also why i am lost. Wanting to have the best of both world or only solely food. Haiz headache. It's only a week plus to application. Oh..my.....
8:54 PM
-Jing Juan-
Friday, January 19, 2007
It's been a real busy week. Exams are coming and i am seriously busy mugging for it... and thanks to my sister who brought home a
CELLO and there she goes practising it every now and then. The screeching and squeaking irritating noise keeps lingering in my ears... i really hope she stops it!! I remember in the past she brought home " pi pa" and that was a horror itself...and now came cello....omg....
I don't know what's wrong but as usual i don't like friday.
Haiz. I feel like taking a break from studies and go shopping!! However, i am really broke and sooner i will be a full parasite to my grandma. Haz....
Why are you feeling so upset? Nobody told you it's gota be easy?Haiz... i'm also not sure, i just feel that there's nothing much i can do to make it work.
Why then did you agree, you know with your lazy and dependent nature you cant.That's y i wanna change so i agree!! And i don't want to waste my time on earth and nothing else matter than that.
Where's your faith? The drive in you, the determination?Hiding because of fear.
So wanna give up?Almost.
8:12 PM
-Jing Juan-
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Went to NTU yesterday for the school tour exclusively for poly studentswith my shu ling and shu ping...all thanks to shu ling for emailing for us =). I think it's a good experience to explore there and more about the courses they are offering. After the trip there i actually had quite a number of stuffs to give it a thought. Before the school tour starts there's some brief introduction from the prof as well as the 2 scholars. Well i heard something which seriously struck me. Her speech was like " ok firstly ask yourself why do you want to pursue a degree" Is it to pursue for the sake of pursueing as everyone is doing so or is it a key to your career path and finally or you hope to really touch the world with something. Bascially i was half awake you see, but her speech really inspire me.
After which we went to the NIE tour, hmm don't get the wrong idea i have no interest in becoming a teacher haha. It's both of my friends' choice so i just follow and after the tour i seriously think i cannot become a teacher haha. Just doesn't belong to my world. Lol. And well too many girls in the girl i guess, the main idea is there's no guys la haha. =P Then after the buffet lunch we went to another tour and that's more like where i suppose to be. It's the School of Physical and Mathematical Sciences and we went to the chemical and biological chemistry section. It's a pretty new school, the course is new i suppose and i think it's very competitive as well. Bascially it's just studying chemistry but they actually have food modules if you choose to concentrate on the food sci & tech. Somehow i just think that their modules are very chim. Their focus is on inorganic, organic, analytical, physical chemistry, it's so chemistry. I think the lecturers there is very practical as well. Their main idea is just to promote how good the course is and keep emphasing that " you just make drugs and sell and make money, in chemistry you learn how molecules and molecules bind" So i was like...its my interest, its not about making big money. -.- However, trully speaking, chemistry degree can really allow you to go further in the society compared to the food sci degree which i wanted to take. So i am very luan now also.
Was chatting with my uncle just now, he's like..omg....is it all lecturers are the same? Not interest, it's about your career, the salary, the status. He asked me to study eh....hmmm audiology? hmm aiyah not sure la it's like hearing aid stuffs because he's doing the proj and he keeps saying you can earn like 4000 plus. Come on, i am not interested and it's not what i am studying so far and he even wants me to go engineering saying that " sometimes engineering got quite little students so you can get in" I was like @_@!! What makes you think i cant go in food science!! I know it's very competitive but i am trying ma...
Back to okay...what makes me want to pursue a degree? Influence? Background? Guys =p? Experience? Interest? Money? Haiz.. I can only say i really and trully have the passion in food, really want to go more in depth into it....well hope to earn abit more than a dip salary fair enough and hmmm..uni guys are not bad either....haha....
You can do no great things but you can do small things with great hearts~Mother Teresa
8:03 PM
-Jing Juan-
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Ops too long never update, haiz i was busy okay. I wonder why nowadays everybody is so busy, actually i also don't what i am busy with but days just passes very fast. Signz.
Spend my whole day in school yesterday to bake the cookies for the Career & Courses Fair today. Erm...and i think we managed to bake like 800 - 1000 cookies. It's really alot and we're like really speedy. After the 8 hours of baking, i really stinks. Haz... And there goes my wednesday.
Today is the first day of the Career & Courses Fair and i was selected to carry out the duty from 2 - 6. Well basically i just have to stand there distribute my cookies and tell those Sec school students more about my course - DCP. Other than CCF, its also the Spinovex exhibition and some of my school mates projects were exhibited in it. I saw quite a number of trully inovative stuffs as well. I was quite impressed with the reduce or in fact super low fat "bak kua" cause i know that it's very hard especially in deal with fatty stuffs. It's those fat that makes your cookies, bak kua, cakes muffins, ice-cream super nice! Without fat well i can say yr food will not turn out with such promising texture or taste. Thus to reduce the fat content and at the same time not compromising the texture and taste, it's actually quite hard but i think their bak kua still consider not bad le la. It's really a very gd chance to get into spinovex, how i wish our cookies also have the chance but i guess it gotta be next yr and well we wont be part of it, the chance is given to the juniors who take over the proj. Haiz.
Anyway back to my duty, haz.....i m jus too lucky. After shu ling and shu ping ended their duty it was linnet n my turn to take over. There bound to have lecturers covering the duties as well and guess what Amos Goh happened to be the lecturer for the Industrial Chemistry option from 2 - 4. I was just simply very excited. Haha. I've been waiting to take photo with him. Haha. We've missed him on the graduation party as well as the D n D but yea there comes my chance. But well...i was abit paiseh la. It's quite weird also loh, not the appropriate situation to take photo with lecturers until hwee ying came. Wow she's so daring loh, she jus took out her cam and went to ask Amos Goh if she could take photo with him. And i had been standing there for like 1 hr still waiting for my chance. Admire her courage. Haha. There comes my chance for a photo shoot with him. Hoho. Today is the first time i ever had a long conversation with Amos Goh, i dont remember asking him alot of stuffs on his QAAS module. I am happy enough to see him today. Lalala.
9:43 PM
-Jing Juan-
