Friday, July 29, 2005

Ha~haven't been blogging since so long. This week is my holiday week but it doesn't seem like a holiday for me. They should put it as a "rushing report" week. Well, i am finishing my reports, only left hmm... a sausage report and pastry report. Finally, i think that will be all for this semester. Thank God, or else i will cry. Hopefully, when school starts my lecturers won't go like" you all must complete blah blah assignment by week blah blah" or " last presentation, last report to complete". Please!!!! I had enough this sem. Drain already.

Just hang up the call from Darryl. Tml he's going field camp, hmmm....only back next Sat. Means no contact, no call, no sms, no booking out. All his stuffs like hp....have to be surrender to his officer. Haiz. SianZ. Ha~ But his field camp week seems to be my busiest week also. I have 3 test and a presentation once school reopen. One on monday(sian),tuesday, thursday and friday. Haiz..haiz.. don't like yr 2, i like yr 1..my honeymoon period over already. Sobs. Haiz..no choice no matter what also must do. What choice do i have? Humans like so poor thing, always have to undergo stress. Study stress, work stress, family stress, relationship stress, siblings stress, eat stress and so on. Haiz... Ke lian* Hmm..makes me think of (xiao pang, liqin's rabbit) it is so adorable, only eat, slp, stone and being dote by them. Wah..so xing fu..haha...dot*Dot* (But what i enjoy, xiao pang cant =p) so i think i will still be me.

Anyway, just hope that one week pass really fast.

Attended Darryl's Graduation ceremony. Wow, Sp's grad ceremony not very impressive de, haha. Hmm...but got some motivation from there. Saw alot of very pretty girls, hmm CLS girls also quite chio de. That's of course not my motivation. My motivation came from those who got extremely good results and very pretty as well. Saw this particular from Optometery, wow she got the merit award and some other scholarship and she's very elegant and nice-looking. Then, there were also some others who acheieved alot of awards. Hmm..I also hope to get merit award. Haiz, but can't even get outstanding performance how to get merit. I bet they sure get 6 or 7 As each sem. Dot. I tot my last sem results was very good but still cant get outstanding. Haiz..my friend got the scholarship from a food company, only those who get outstanding performance are elegible for the application. I also want leh. Nvm, i will try harder this sem.

Haiz....one week........ =(

10:32 PM

-Jing Juan-

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Daiz...just got the mail saying that i may not get this sem's bursary. Dot..... haiz.... sad...... think too many people applied for it...

Clearing my assignments and report this week....Two quizes next week....then it's holiday...yeah..wah...can recharge my battery....getting low batt le.... Never go noon service today due to over workload... but will go next week....

Invited my grandma to go to my church's event next week and she agreed..hmm...quite happy...cos she never hestitate....hmm....

Tml will get back my maths quiz results aiyo....hope can get 90....plss.....

Haiz...everyday is so sian....cant even focuss, i also don't know what i am doing..so busy loh...like kind of no life....everyday study study study..when i reach home...close my door study study study till dinner after that study again..then report report till like 12plus then ZzZzzz....haiz....sian....i keep rejecting my fren...they keep asking me to go out...i also quite ps to reject her cos it's her birthday..but..i simply have no mood....

On fri, we had our class outing at Sakae haiz.. boring...i mean sakae...i've been there for dunoe how many thousand times le..sian loh.. eat till i wan puke...i prefer fish n co or maybe jack's place...anyway its free haha... don't know y sp always wan ask to have class gathering...then we get free food to eat..i did enjoy...really enjoy..cause we can get to know each other more....but i really ddn't wan to go...haiz.. fri is my free day suppose to study at hm...

On thur prac..our class tutor asked if anyone cant go...i keep shaking my head..haha..then she said "jean u cant go ah"? then i said ya...cannot...then whole class stared at me -_-" even my frens asked "eh y u cant go" i say i dun wanna go" after that my lecturer come personally to ask me...haiz.. dot... haha.. anyway i treat her like my fren..so can openly chat with her...cant persuade me....but abit shaken le...haha. Before i went off..she added something" jean hope i can see u tml ah" then hmmm.....i said maybe loh...eventually i still went....but haiz.. felt so guilty never finish my revision for friday..haiz....

oh ya...haiz.everyday's is just sian...i think i need to re focuss.... cause i am kind of lost.... like being in a steady rate....no up...nor down... haiz...must spend more time...doing nicer things....most imptly...mus not shut my door everyday...or else like really stuck in a corner...
haiz...i really sian loh..everyday like no one talk to me...haiz.. dot...also not on very good terms with my frens..that makes it worst...(__) PoodDd..

10:50 PM

-Jing Juan-

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Dot...Darryl just said that this saturday he cant book out in the afternoon like the rest cause he had missed alot of training due to his sickness. Dot...the officer so cruel..he still say nsmen have lots of welfare, well..pui haha...Hmm..Haiz...what to do... He will be missing TQ again...this is the 5th time le...this is bad...really bad... hmm...Impt is service cannot miss...

I am completing my pigment report, everyone is brooding over it...it seems to clash all our things..like they say "tio tart" like that cause the report's content is so much that we have to spend hours and hours searching..i have 3 books with me right now..urgh...all on pigments... but sitll some resources are still not found yet...pui*

Today our experiment is pastry making haha. Seems fun right? I thought so in the 1st time but act. it is la....but..the pastry not as nice as i think it will become. This experiment is to see if diff types of fat in pastry affects the texture. I was doing the pastry margarine 80g. Pui loh..my pastry was undercook and think my mate roll too hard during dough making, the pastry cannot rise...all the network fomation is destroyed. And 80g of pastry margarine is too creamy le...not nice de... My fren's one was quite nice, pastry margarine 70g..then the rest like butter not too bad..then have normal margarine..wah..so much oil loh..like eating oil haha... yucks...when it just came out from oven..haha..hmm...initially i tot like Delifrance pastry ahha but aiyah our skills not so gd not nice de...."one fren say sell to delifrance our recipie..then another say siao delifrance throw away ah their pastry so nice y wan our kok recepie.. hahahaha..stupid leh their conversation.so dumb....delifrance leh...haha -_-"" My classmates very dumb de, their conversation all so lame and stupid haha.... btw i am looking forward to the next experiment..bread making..wah..i saw the other group of students make the choc chips bread..wah...like so nice hor..hmm....hehehe...when it is my turn i am going to pour the whole lot of chips in...GrInz*

10:40 PM

-Jing Juan-

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Wah....i feel like sleeping......but cant..sobs.. my report loh..this is the worst report of all ah..haiz..i have been working on it lately till now sitll haven finish but soon soon...wah..quickly clear it cos it hinders me from doing other things..=(

Went to watch Initial D yesterday...midnight show..dot....slept at 3am loh..kaoz @_@ today in service i nearly can't make it...haha... tired leh..then previous day was working on my report till 1am haiz.. so sad loh..cannot slp early...today haiz.. i am only resting now..still have to continue typing later. Btw..the Initial D, wah..Jay...he's quite shuai in the show..haha...other than that overall they show i will give on a scale of 1 - 10, maybe 7.... wah...midnight show leh so ex... 9.50 leh..wah..can eat a super nice meal le..aiyo..if there is a choice i will choose to watch on tue..cheaper...but.. i dun have time..=(

Darryl just booked in. Hmm... he is in a very low morale...hmm... he like seems to detest the life there...lots of complaints from him..though he seems ok in front of everybody, he has lots of unhappiness in his heart..jus that no one seem to know...hmm....(only prayers will help)

This few days also has been thinking...haiz... so many ppl had left our cg... they seems so far away also.. it is really true that a christian life is like a bus journey...ppl may board e bus at the interchange, so many ppl boarded... along the way many ppl alight too with reaching the final stop.. it's quite a sad thing to say..last time there were so many of us together serving but now only some of us are left...sometimes when i see Cl's cg i feel so blessed for them haha...cos they have so many ppl serving tog like last time i used to have...so must really cherish ah... (telling char de =) )

Haiz... dunoe la....dot.... haiz.... tml got sch...haiz.... sian.........

11:07 PM

-Jing Juan-