Thursday, June 30, 2005
Ok..back to update my blog again..have been really busy recently...till now also. =( So many assignments tumbling up...well..don't want to mention any more or else i will be too stress up. Just reach home....so tired... Well.. have quite alot of things to update today.
Yesterday i was so pissed! There are the usual 3 of us (L and P) plus another friend Valerie whom who seldom want to work with her or talk to her. Then obviously 3 person together, there will bound to have a person who is odd one out. It happen to be me which i don't know y? Everytime like have pair work they always dump me to Valerie or other person. Why cant be me and L or me and P, they must always be together de but actually me and L are closer even closer than she and P.
Well..actually i don't mind..actually initially i don really wanna stick to Valerie also but after that sunday sermon i found out that hmm..actually cant isolated from those people that usually "bu qi yan" esp. she has no friends..and i must say that V has no friends at all...except the 3 of us who are sought of willing to talk to her..she is really alone.. so i change my whole thinking and decidded to befriended her n treat her nice nice.....
They always pair up and left me alone..then they will say something like "you wan pair with V ma if don wan then other person loh" what is that suppose to mean..is valerie that bad??? So i very pek chek..i say y cant i pair with valerie, y must be other person?? UrGh!. every alt friday i don't have to return to sch so i had already planned out my whole work. but..they always like to put projects or other stuffs on friday.... which i don't wan...because i have to go sch just for that few hours it's wasting my time loh...the two of them they have something else in the afternoon so it's like "sun bian" for them...but not me me!! Then L still say "are you trying to be selfish" come on for goodness sake...am i that kind... they never spare a thought for me..why cant put it on other days after sch..convenient ma..Friday convenient for them not me...they sacriface me...kaoZ..who is selfish...!!! -_-"""
I so bu shuang!! I complained and complained to Darryl..keep complaining till i shuang think he also @_@" haha... i keep nagging n nagging...kaoz who is selfish!! I am very busy k..my weekends are completely out.... at least they still have maybe sunday to study...wah piang* i dunoe what to say...luckily eventually i managed to persuade then not to put it on friday....but if they do..well....i don wan come!!!!! I will start to argue!! Argh!! Totally angry, ever since... i shall keep quiet now =X HmpH!!
Today went to look for Amos Goh regarding an assignment..n i saw an ornament on his table which has the words "praise the Lord" i was like wow..Amos God is a christian? But not confirm yet till after we went out of his rm..my fren told me she saw 2 super big bible on his table... ...wah...ideal man....he is the ideal man....because Amos Goh is the most handsome lecturer i have ever seen in SP...or should i say cls only even Darryl says so loh so nan de... haha he always say he is the most "handsome" guy (puke bhb) But haiz.. seriously pls..Sp has no handsome lecturers....all are either tall n nerd or short, fat with big tummy. LOL.... Hee.....amos goh is the most shuai lecturer i have ever seen...really.. he's nice looking, a christian, stable job with high income and a car...wah.....sounds so perfect loh...it is perfect haha....humourous also... but........ he is married...haha...aiyah there's a saying good guys are always other people's husband..but that's none of my business also...haha...But its good to have a good looking lecturer, can brighten up our study environment ma, LOL...
11:48 PM
-Jing Juan-
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Yeah. 4 more days to go. Hee~ well...this will be a very very busy week. Thus i think 4 days will pass very very fast. All my assignments are coming think i will soon be very busy and get use to Darryl being not around. Altogether i have 5 assignments, haiz...@_@ yr 2 is extremely busy!
Monday- I will have my lab discussion after my school which is 5pm. Urgh 8am -5pm lecture!! Dot.........then still have lab report work.
Tuesday - Because of the Saturday Puala Ubin trip i have to change my tuition to tues and it's a 2 hour tuition. So is from 10am in the morning to like 8pm....sure tired.
Wednesday - Finally have time to study, sure there will be lots of revision work to be done.
Thursday - Haiz.. School as usual till 5pm then still have tuition after that i must quickly rush to my violin lesson. Dot dot dot..... Reach hm think also 8 plus already.
Friday - Yeah..finally...hehe..I have to revise my work first then i can relax..then go and meet Darryl!!! =)
Busy? Ya...very..i don't even have time to breathe. I dislike even week. Because lesson ends very late and there is not much time for revision. Busy........
11:02 PM
-Jing Juan-
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Well...perhaps 8 more days to go..hmm i am counting down. There have not been times when we never meet up more than 6 days...the longest is also 4 days..haiz..waiting for somebody is really a torment.
Hmm..still doing my food assignment...haiz.. didn't know that this course so hard de... altogether i have more than 4 memorising subjects worst than Olevels biology..bleah.. haiz.. then learning about Quality quality quality...haiz.. so tough...today when i look at my calender and found out that in 3 mths time my exams will be over..gosh can u imagine a sem is so fast?? And also around that time think darryl already finish his bmt le. That's good at least no need go tekong..
Nomatter what next fri or sat when he book out..hmm hopefully fri afternoon..the 1st person he see must be me...be it 3pm,4...5..6..7..8..9..10pm i must also go pasir ris...abit extreme la i know..but..haiz...dot... now nobody talks to me..and i have so much things to say...cant possibly talk to myself ma..so i vent it out on my online blog...Hai..The time we get to chat is also not very long maybe like 15mins... then he has to put down le..like so rush... haiz.. Take just now for eg..i haven't even finish he say gtg gtg already then i have to stop loh.. haiz... dot dot dot..... haiz..
11:11 PM
-Jing Juan-
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Hmm..9 more days to go provided he nook out on friday.
Chatted with darryl just now, he finally got his hp back today. Think he was quite free today so i ask him go QT. He called in afternoon also, so surprising hmm it's a bonus i tell myself that, not everyday he will be that free. I let him know about out cg, church as well as the sunday's sermon. Then chatted on something we learned during Qt. He shared about verse in Romans something about judgement. Well.. i hope all these will continue till his ns ends. So that to make sure he will not leave God.
He said that inside the camp, most people say foul languages and he occasionally spit out but nv more than twice. I was like "HUH" people say then u must say also la, think he sought of get what i mean. Too shock. Think he also understand that it was wrong. Think everyday we must pray loh cause i think the influences there quite big. Prayer changes things. However, it's still good la that he never really want to chat with his mates there as he said that they always chat at the big table between the beds. He at least uses his free time to QT which is gd and to call me loh. Then i always nag, think he also quite shut his ears to my nagging. Haiz. But cant help it. Have to nag or else he so forgetful will not remember. Continue to pray for him k ppl? He needs God's strength and wisdom.
I am so tired now.. but still searching for my lab data. Yawn... chating with wennyi online.. think she also alot of things to say..Thinks she also like everytime complain to liqin and sy still sian le now she sees me straight away burst out all her troubles to me. Haiz.. she cant seem to get what i am saying.. but i m super tired now need to log off le. I also dunoe how to say to her. Dotz Tml my lecture at 8am. QAAS haiz sian...all the quality quality stats stuff, bleah.. but this is the most xiong module of all. Today my concentration also quite low, cant absorb much. Well...go ZzZ first la
11:35 PM
-Jing Juan-
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Ok today is Day 1 looks like there are still 14days to go. Hopefully i can bear with it and hope his hp can last him that long.
Haiz. Today almost being scare to death by him as he was caught charging his hp and his hp got confiscated. That dumb pig, i always say he is dumb dumb but he don't admit. I asked him to charge secretly if he can haiz.. then he got caught le. Haiz..
This morning took a stroll at my house canal, trying to sort out my feelings. Then return home feeling better, i had my QT then i feel quite peaceful. Hmm...But still cannot get use to it i think.
He called awhile ago saying that he got back his hp..and luckily the commander nv punish him and he offered to charge for him too. Hmm..phew for him. Then...well he say at least he is better today than yesterday. He is seeking God also. Well.. hmm..
10:35 PM
-Jing Juan-
Friday, June 10, 2005
Oh I didn't know the his testimonial is so long, i just get to read it today.
Haiz. He just went in NS today. Haiz. Two weeks later then can see him. Haiz. Dotz. Haiz. Two weeks...well hopefully can pass really fast, i just hope that i can concentrate on my stuffs. Hmm...
10:46 PM
-Jing Juan-
Monday, June 06, 2005
Hi guys. This is JJ's bf here. She allowed me the use of her blog for today. To spread a message.
In my life these few years as a christian, I realised that I did not share the gospel much. I'm going to do so now, by sharing my testimonial.
I have gone to church since Sec 1, when I was 13. Spent nearly 5 years there. Does going to church qualify you as a christian? NO! I was young then, and never really understood why or what going to church, serving God was all about. When I was 17, something happened in my life. I'm not going into all the details but eventually I left the church, and entered the darkest days of my life so far. I was not a bad kid. Never smoked, never killed. But my life was empty. What was I living for? I do not know.
Everything changed one year later. My mom went to this chinese speaking church near our place in Woodlands. I refused to go with her at first, believing nothing will change. Eventually I went though. At Charis Evangelical Free Church, the people wanted me to join their youth group. I was adamant at my decision to be alone and I refused a few times. I just wanted to be alone. But still they continued to pester me. To stop them, I gave in and joined them. And so I was back in church again. A few months in this church, I was requested to help in a dance item that will be produced by the youth for our church camp, which will be held in Malaysia. I had never intended to go. But, with my dance training, and the fact that they really needed my help, I went with them to the camp.
One night, all the youth were gathered into my room which I shared with Leon, Zonglin and Ivan. David led us in worshipping God. Many of us started crying. I instantly knew that it was the work of God. We could all feel his presence soothing us, comforting us, touching us. It was at that moment that I knelt down and repented. I was wrong. God had never once given up on me. God has never left me. It was I who turned away from him. I was made anew. I was given a second chance, a second life to live. God forgave me. I had never experienced God in such a way. I realised that God loves me. He loved me through all the people in church. It was through them that I felt God's love.
3 years have passed. As I look back, all my regret is gone. God has forgiven me, cleansed me of all my sins. I am a new person. I just want to give thanks for everyone in church. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to serve with all of you. As I prepare to leave for national service, this is my final note. I know that my time will be limited severely. If what I have said here has touched anyone reading this in any way, I would appreciate it if you would leave a comment of email me at longkang@excite.com. It might be a while before I reply though. For the time being, JJ, my gf, shall maintain my email.
Signing off for now, D.
1:17 AM
-Jing Juan-
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Finally today i end quite early and my tuition for today is cancelled as my student is sick. Hee. Yesterday actually wanted to go Eski Bar with fang they all but hmm, ha i am too broke and plus my tutorial haven't do so nv go instead. Aiyah miss the chance to meet up with them, haiz, visited the eski bar website, hmm it seems quite nice to me but haha maybe the drinks are pretty ex so i "san si le" very long then decided not to go. Perhaps wait till i have extra cash then go ba.
Today, as usual have to carry stacks of notes home, 1st week of school is always like that. Some lectures have started, like food chem, food materials and processes, maths and chem eng principles. Hmm..Got to learn alot of interesting stuffs like there like few sub topics such as milk tech, meat tech, colour pigments, additives, vitamins. Next week i will be starting my lab, that will be very interesting le. We will be making pastry, bread, maybe chocs, testing and tasting food. Haha, at least i never choose the wrong option. Those who love to eat should study this but there are also boring modules also la.
Today i am going to plan my timetable, study time and schedule. I must say this sem will be very "xiong" i have quite a number of memorising modules. I will be teaching tuition as well as going for violin and so on. My friend still ask if i want to take sports elective, haha i have no more time le. Don't even need to think about CCA haiz... It is only the 1st week and i have 2 assignments already. One is studying food products,the other is to create a food product using cheese. Searching searching for ideas!!! For the studying food products, hehe i want to study on CHOCS! Hee... one of the options....lol~
Tml there is no school yeah, can slp till i "shuang" lol...
3:09 PM
-Jing Juan-
