Friday, December 12, 2003
Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
Bottom-line : A person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves me more than I love him.
11:24 PM
Okay look...i am super sway this few days~~~~ ArGh~
FuLl of injuries.........two days ago while scanning...the paper cut through my fresh and it's like..wah...that's small case.....yesterday..i wear that stupid shoes......and it's raining somemore....the leather's quite tough...and when i reached home then i realised that actually the fresh between the toes were erm..how to say..."po bi" "Qi pao""split open" it's like wah~ pain~ worst part's while bathing you really can scream......kaoz.....very very pain~.....ArgH........now still very painful...today while walking to Mrt station it's like hell.......aiyah..kk enough...
Worst...today....................haiz.............wah liew.........my hp dropped into toilet bowl...........dun laugh k..it's serious matter..........haiz....immediately i picked it up........without hestitating.........and i offed it!!!!!!!!kaoz....washed hands la(of cos) after that......fortunately it's still alright now..but i am worried that a few days later it will become sot sotz haiz.. hope it wont very ex leh......can anyone assure mi that it will be alright? SobS! kaoz...i will never never never bring my hp to toilet again!!!!!!!!!! haiz....should wear it around my neck!!! haiz..haiz....
10:41 PM
-Jing Juan-
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
UrGh~!
AiYo~...
BlEaH~
ArgH~
GrRrRg~
HaIz~
11:07 PM
-Jing Juan-
Monday, December 08, 2003
today's really sian....monday again....signz......once i reached there..found out that my colleague was on MC~ and...thus i had to do her things which i have yet learn.....so it's kind of tough....after doing her things i had to finish my own stuffs too..so it's like abit slow down lo..normally by lunchtime i already finish one project...but today dragged till like 5.55 then finished..but still 'heng" just before i go home.....
During lunch time someone asked me to join them for lunch...aiyah paiseh la..so i rejected their offer....then it's like kind of awkward..cause he asked " u eating alone, wanna join us for dinner" i simply replied "don wan" wah like very dao like that but i am not loh.....think make that indian gal and him also paiseh..kana rejected by a tiny miny tempt staff.....then after lunch i tried my best to avoid them while going toilet and taking drinks.....then i kept looking at the floor....haha...trying to let them know that actually today i abit sad...not because i dao....
haiz..still thinking wheather i wanna go church camp anot....haiz.. if i go....i have to waste money again...but if i dun go it's like..haiz.. gota wait one more year...it's abit long loh...how..how..how.....haiz...i kept praying...seeking God see which way should i choose...go or don't go? Haiz~
i discovered a park near my office area...from tml onwards i am going to finish my lunch in 15mins time and spend the rest 45mins to read my book....or bible there....cause when i reach home i will be dead tired to read le...if this goes on..i will drift further and further form God's word so i decided to read or have my Qt at the time...cos the park's also veyr veyr quiet..and peaceful~
10:45 PM
Sunday
Wah....came back from camp this afternoon....the moment i reached home...i just simply dumped my bag down...grabbed some clothes..changed them..and boom...slp....i knew i was very sticky..but aiyah don't care..wait till i sleep le then say....all the way from 1pm i slept till 7pm..then..it's like my house so noisy...wah...suddenly...it's crowded with my uncles and aunties...like new year like that.....it's normal lo cause they are here every sunday..but..suddenly i felt abit strange...hahaz......once i woke up..it's like..wah..so *shuang*
They all got shocked that i looked rather blurr and tanned at the moment....obviously.....imagine running around under the sun......my uncle said i shou le..but..no leh..cause though it's quite tough in the camp..we ate alot too....
Still feeling super tired..haiz.. lots of things to update ahz..but..lazy...tml gota work again..aiyo...sian leh....haiz....
The camp's very fun.....yah...though everyone of us' like...restless....haiz..ended so fast....good things have to come to an end...actually learn quite alot during it..esp..when i lead those games..erm..yah...cause aiyah i doesn't have any good skills or what loh..always monkey see monkey do like that..but this time i was given something to accomplish..and that's like a new thing to try....though everytime in cell grp there's games la..but this time it's like really different….cause there’s a lot of people…then..erm…actually still quite successful…. At least can learn to speak in front of more people…
On sat there’s a morning devotion and I was with Kq and Deborah….and we shared on a lot of things and from the materials I really have lot of “gan shou” it very true loh..you have a bank account and it’s called time. Everyday it credits you 86400 seconds. At midnight whateva you failed to use it lost. A balance is not carried over to the next day and you’re not allowed overdraft. Each day the banks named time opens a new account with you and each night it burns the records of the day. If you fail to use the day’s deposits the loss is yours. If every morning ur bank credicted your account with $86400 but every night canceled whateva part of ur amount u failed to use what would u do? Spend every cent of course?
Make the most of every opportunity for doing good in these evil days~
God’s timing is always perfect~
Have lots of things to give thanks…really a lot……erm..it’s like…Christian walk is tough obviously but I have the peace that..not everyone will experience….so wad if u have a bf? Or money..or what other things….those things wont tempt mi..loh…as long as this peace wont disappear….it’s the best thing in my life le……
Aiyah lots of crap…k end here still very tired..slping soon again…
10:30 PM
-Jing Juan-
